this is rediculous...i go to college intent on saying fuck friends...i don't need new friends so leave me the fuck alone. and somehow i just have this magnet and bam i have a huge group of people that assume we're buddies....granted they're great people and stuff...but theres so much drama in this group of girls...i didn't even want to be their friends..i was content on just being the smart kid in the class that they used for answers and that would be that...but no...i apparently am the psychiatrist for them...they come to me spilling all there terrible dark secrets....one will remain nameless...but she is driving me up the fucking endless wall...she is the constant reminder of why having a boyfriend is un fucking necessary....she was dumped four fucking months ago...four months...and shes been agonizing and obsessing over this guy for these four months...i brushed it off..i tried to be sensitive about her feelings i really did, i just sat there and put on the "smile like a doughnut" stare/face of vappidness and listened to her constant drabble of how "he" ripped her heart out and stommped all over it...finally in my post wisdom tooth removal vikodened up state i finally, finally! laid it on straight....i said " hes a guy...shit happens...and its been four months...you really need to let it go and stop doing negative shit to yourself, this is regardless of your condtion or your bi polar disorder...i've only known you for these four months... you cannot expect me to be sensative to your needs, and all this shit...i dont want to hear it any more its driving me fucking crazy" this was after she told me on aim tonight, that she took 15 ibprofen and cut herself....that shit is not funny to me ..to me this is just some stupid attempt for attention that she is not recieving from anybody (i.e. the boyfriend/ex in question) and im just tired of it...every day its always her, how shes depressed and that somehow im the only one that'll listen to her...but jesus christ i've never done serious relations ships.. i don't know what the hell she needs to come to me for....enough is fucking enough already... this is why i only like to have male friends...or girls that are tomboyish in nature..cause what do we all care about are videogames and freezing shit with air in a god damned can... Current Mood: to the fucking brink man
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